just thursday.

i wanted to write today, i just don't really know what about. i've been missing blogging, but i've just felt like i have nothing interesting to say. i visit my blog quite frequently each day, check to see if anyone else has written anything of note, notice how long it's been since i've written last, and sign out. i don't feel as melancholy as that sounds :), it's just what i've been doing. so here are some rambles and thoughts and nothings.

i was offered that job i wrote about last. the people were really great, i liked the doctor and all the assistants and office staff were really personable. they called afterwards and offered me the job and i had until tuesday afternoon to let them know my answer. after much thought and prayer and discussing together with matt, i came to the difficult conclusion that the best thing would be to turn it down. hard decision because we need the added income and it was the presentation of a job... but right decision because it wasn't the right fit. in the interview i realized i really want to pursue something i have a personal interest in, am maybe slightly passionate about, and maybe something i actually got my degree for. i realized that job was going to feel significantly like settling for something... cake. i at least need to know i'm making an impact, reaching out with the best of my ability to touch people in struggling circumstances and give them hope. so, i've gotten my feelers out and have applied for some positions in social service, mental health, non-profits. i'm praying something pans out because i feel like i need it to. i have a deep hunger for the work of my hands to be useful in helping out the broken and needy. first choice: a job with an organization that works with the homeless population in seattle and new moms. i feel hopeful, but have no idea what may come of these hopes. all i know is i couldn't take a job in an office of cosmetic dentistry for people who can afford it and make phone calls all day to confirm appointments. i think i'd whither away.

i'm recycling. a lot.

i've been making an effort to make sure i do something active every day and it's been a good week for that. this has taken the form of pretty intense dog walks. i've been exploring the area on foot with leash in hand and my faithful hound at my side. tuesday marked me stripping off my warmer layers, even in the cool ocean air, because of the enormous trek back up a hill that had seemed steep on the way down, but maybe not quite as steep as it actually turned out to be. my haunches let me know what muslces were being used! yesterday i chose a flatter path that wound around harbour pointe underneath the maple trees that are now dropping their leaves and reminding me of ninth avenue at home. that was nice. it was a good 2-mile loop that i think i will choose on the days in between hill-climbing from now on. :) it's been good to work up a sweat, good to be sore each morning, good to be putting my running shoes to use, though i have to walk before i can run again.

perhaps i had more to say than i realized... this will be it for now, but i might be back writing again today and if not, then definitely soon.