the FRUST.

i am the hunggggerrrz. i think matt is bringing me some chicken strips and jojos from safeway! mmmm, my fav. chicken strips, that is. and favorite person.

i am learning some important lessons in my job lately. today, in fact. i am learning how to not speak when i want to. how to hold my tongue when i feel RAGE welling up in me, haha. how to take a deep breath and speak gently and respond slowly when my human reaction would be the opposite. i am learning to actively search for what jesus sees in people when i would write them off as not worth the effort. i need to be honest and say that, because it's altogether too easy to give up on people that frustrate us. but i refuse to. that would be wrong of me. so i am learning to choose my words and speak wisely.

funny how our small group this quarter is digging into this study -- speaking wisely. i am learning, along with these other great women, how much weight and impact there is in each word we speak. and that we have the ability to hone our words to either encourage and lift up, or tear apart and damage. the key word here is 'learning.' i will forever be learning to speak more wisely... i just have to say that it is becoming a constant factor in my life, being aware of the impact of my responses and interactions with others. and when my frustration wells up in this workplace i am learning to muster up gentleness, quietness, and be slower to respond than is my natural reaction.