back step devotional.

on my back steps in this greenery, this purple-ry, this yellow-ry, and blue-ery, i meet with You. i can thank You for the blood on this little stoop in ellensburg, washington so far away from the hill in jersualem where the cross was, but really quite near it. it is a similar place because You are here. and i'm meeting with You on my back steps.

i'm trusting you with a future that is unknown to me but known to you. actively trusting and giving you my attention because i want what You want. trusting that the decisions we make will be the best ones because You've girded us up in all that we know of You and the knowledge we've gained by pursuing You. you dance over me, sing all around, and i never hear the sound if i don't stop, quiet, be still, and look. how amazing is Your love for us. i know You hold us, and hem us in behind and before our steps. so i'm just telling You i recognize that. i see Your provision, Your great love, and Your all-consuming perfectness. i know you are faithful to provide, jehovah JIRAH. our provider.

just assure us of Your presence. come behind us, place Your hand on our backs, live amongst us and our goings and comings and be You because we need You.

how far i've come in what i used to never know... that You would always be in the next step. i said i knew, but i had no idea.

i have such a small sum of insight in all actuality, and it's never insight to you, but just growth. and that comes through such pain. You keep me humble and trusting and aware of how blind i am and its the best thing for me. it keeps me more like clay and prevents me from becoming an old dried out pot much too soon.

do what You will.