clarification.

i kind of just vomited everything swirling around in my mind in my entry from yesterday. re-reading it, i kind of just want to simplify and re-iterate my point of writing what i wrote.

He cares. He so dearly, intimately, deeply, truly cares which direction we choose. it's just that i'm discovering that i will not be out of His plan if i choose one option or the other. He simply cares more about who i am becoming than what i am doing. and by caring about who i am becoming, that will get me to be doing the things that bring my LORD the most esteem, glory, and praise.

i hope this clears up my gobbeldy-gook that i wrote yesterday... i didn't mean to say that He doesn't care period, i just meant to say that He cares more about my soul than my circumstances.

i LOVE that He cares about that. and wants that for me.

another thing i've been chewing on, from the great b. dillon herself:
my weakness arouses His mighty heart. He is not disgusted by my neediness.... that is a lot to take in, a lot to try to fathom, a very very comforting word to my heart and a humbling thought.