puttering, swimming, rambling.

i have to admit it takes me some adjusting to just be at home and just "be." it's not as easy as i would like for it to be for me to just sit or relax and do nothing and feel like i have permission to do so. and it's only myself that doesn't give me permission to do so. i'm a work in progress in learning how to feel free to just be at home.

i love home and i love to putter. it's not that i don't love that, because i absolutely do. it's just that it's really been such a long time since i've been able to do that. it's been a long while since i've even had the time to be able to putter for a couple of days, truly, so i am making sure that i do that this week. i want to, i need to, because i love to. all of this is just to say that it's not as easy as i think it should be because of the pressure to always be getting something done or pressure to always be somewhere else. i don't want to live like that, so i am dubbing this week a week of puttering, dadgummit! for me and my husband, this shall be a week of puttering and at-homeness. thus sayeth me.

my home is good for my soul. it is full of reminders of all that i am abundantly thankful for. and it is a place to fall and soak in peace and enjoy fun moments. and it is a place to walk humbly with my God, where no words are needed and i can just putter and hum and meditate on dearly beloved songs, scripture, and images that my mind is able to conjure up in the quietness. and it's a blast to be with my huz.

i am really excited for boating and swimming this summer. that is one of those things that i fiercely love because of the memories it makes and the fun it brings with family. i love it because everyone is there in the moment, enjoying the sun for all it's worth and work and stress simply have to be left behind -- there's no room for it on board a boat! i love the feeling of my skin baking and feeling dry and thirsty from head to foot and then jumping into clear, cold water and letting that be the only thing that cools me off.

just swimming in general sounds fun right now. laying in the sun until you're so hot you can't stand it, and then splashing into the middle of the deep end of a pool... that sounds magnificent right now. too bad it's not that warm out today. i proposed that we drive up to the pool at the lodge for matt's family's cabin this afternoon, but it's just a bit too chilly. hopefully it'll warm up this week.

these are my monday afternoon ramblings. nothing else. i'm off to putter and enjoy it.